3 of the things that make me, Me.

I just wanna share a little bit more about myself being that this is my blog.

1. I consider my dorm room to be my museum. 

     If you ever came in, on an instant you would learn a LOT about me, from my walls to my bookshelf to my fridge its mostly decorated. I put up just about everything that has ever made me smile, laugh, or cry on my walls and especially any snail mail I get that's great:)I just feel like if I can't cover myself in all the tattoos that have memories to me then why not spread it all over the walls, I have to stare at them every time I'm in here they may as well make me smile.

2. God is my best friend. 

      Sounds cliche but let me explain. To me a best friend is someone who cares about you no matter what, and when you're talking about something passionately they don't just stare at you, or ignore you, or cut you off to make their point. They listen. They don't judge for your weaknesses or tell you that you should be something else, they accept you. They laugh at all your jokes-not that I tell that many- they empathize with the things that hurt you and they surprise you with their presence every time they're near. They're special and not like any other friend, they watch you cry and don't feel awkward, they're someone you can trust with anything. He is all these things and more.

3. I like my pants to fit a certain way. 

     Literally it's skinny jeans be they Hollister, colored jeans, American eagle jeans, polka dot jeans! As long as they're tight around the ankles and look good with a pair of vans, I can dig it :)

In time I'll post more and tell you more about myself, but this came up because after a rough day I got a package and it had 3 felt leaves and a beautiful scrapbook letter. it made my day and made me even more aware of the surroundings I've given myself and the reasons behind them, they make me happy. Don't settle for second best when you can have God's greatest, it takes a bit of patience but it's so worth it. Indulge yourself, in getting to know yourself :) You're great!

Cassie

Try Hard

People suck. It's a fact that also sucks, and just to be clear I suck sometimes too. I'm in a position of leadership at my school and whenever we plan things people complain about everything. "It's too long, it's too short, there was no marketing, blah blah blah" Do they know what I went through to make this event a reality? No. Did they sit through the meetings and crap and paper work and screenings and stress on top of a full course load, work, a dance team, a weekend outreach and stay up until 3 the night before finishing assignments? Not to my knowledge.

*BUT*
I still have to try hard! Why? Because through all this stuff that sucks, including me, God allows things to go great :) Ya know? There's always a bright side and something to be happy about and God makes all things work together for our good. When we pour our lives into things for God's glory He blesses us so much with His peace and love. God's so great :) So when EVERYTHING and EVERYONE sucks keep trying hard. God sees you :)

Lead me on.

It's been more than long since I've posted on here, but I really wanted to just share something interesting. Last night I went to this beyond scary place called Field of Screams and its actually on the travel channel as the scariest attraction in America. I know right, like why go? You're just gonna pee yourself. But I went and I went through this attraction called the asylum, and for a couple of seconds I was okay, then I started panicking and just wanted to get through it and be out of there. I actually started having a panic attack and COULD NOT handle it, it was so scary. But there was a girl in front of me I knew and she told me to keep her hands on her shoulders, close my eyes, and just follow her. Of course at the time I was a lot more focused on not crying and just repeating over and over again "I'm okay, I'm okay, I'm okay" but really that's what faiths like isn't it? RIGHT MIND BLOWN!! I'll post the link to the song that helped me come to this, but it's a scary life ya know? Never know what's around the corner, but we don't have to. He goes before us and is with us and will lead us in the direction we need to go. Isn't that fantastic?! There's nothing to fear and all that is asked of us is to just follow. I mean, I assume there's a degree of fear in that but I praise God I'm not in the lead and that it's not up to me to brave it alone. I have faith that Jesus will Lead me on.

I just want to help.

I'm poor and in college and a Christian, so when I hear about an incredible cause like Project Rescue I just want to pour my everything into it and help! Like I took books from the free cart in the Library and am in the process of attempting to sell them........it's not going well.....yet anyway.....

I just don't know what to do! I feel like I have no marketable skills(yet-ish) or ability to help them in any way but pray, which I KNOW changes things, but I want to be the hands and feet and assist in a practical way. I get $20 every 2 weeks which I know I can put in.

But also, I'm going on a trip to Greece in May and have $700 due in not so many days. But God promised to be my provider, and I feel like that's something to not be worried about.

*Encouraging food for thought*
God doesn't need us. He is so great and powerful, that He doesn't need prayer, doesn't need fasting doesn't need us. We need Him, and the only thing that is required of us is to be obedient and follow and have faith in Him. I know that He's called me to this trip, so I refuse to fall into the trap that is worry, and to just have faith and know that He's got my back.

He doesn't disappoint, and it's not like He doesn't know what I want and need, and what the plan is. It's His plan! Not at all to encourage becoming idle while we await the promises of God, because maybe it's taking that amount of time- for us to grow our faith and affirm for ourselves what we believe. Or to spend time with Him and build memories of rest in who He is and how He loves us and continue adding to the scrap book of snapshots of the times He was there, when we cried out and He answered and we got the oppourtunity to spend our time waiting in His presence, to remind us where we find peace.

Strength comes through suffering, so if something-money, joy,a job, a way to help a super awesome cause- doesn't come when you want it.

REMEMBER:
God is like Gandalf when it comes to timing: Never early and never late he arrives on our behalf right when he means to be there.
So if you're reading this 1. COOL YOU FOUND MY BLOG THATS SO EXCITING!! 2. I have a gofundme if you wanna help its under- Greece Trip! with a picture of my face and arms if you're weighed down with too much dough 3. Allow God to stir your heart for things and go after them in Faith. He is faithful, never fails, and is consistently there Whom shall I fear? And- Greater is He that's within me that he that is in the world...money's in the world.... Just sayin :)

Until next time (and sorry this got preachy, unless it was helpful then glad I could help :)
Cassie AKA Katz Pajamaz

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The Holy Rollerz

Okay. COOL. Blog. Yeah. Alright Story time. #holyrollerz4lyfe

I ride (around school-college- and whatnot) a lime green Penny Brand Nickel board with yellow wheelz. I've been riding since about November and I love it to death! So a friend of mine-Candace- saw how much I love my board and because she's got money to blow went online and bought one too! Her's is the purple with an aztek underside- so one night of many, I'm teaching her how to ride under the cover of darkness and such, because learning can be embarrassing, and I start teaching her about the joys of speed bumps.

*disclaimer* speed bumps are not joyous and are more like a pain in the side

So I'm looking over my shoulder making sure that she takes the plunge and actually goes over it being the watchful encouraging teacher, and am going slow so I can kind of match her speed. My board goes backward and I fall to the ground, not only this but around the corner is a car coming.

....as if it can't just be me falling, but someone had to see and almost run me over in the process....

I get up and I brush myself off, loosing feeling in my butt cheek the entire time, and after stopping to ask if I was alright and speeding away the car is gone. Leaving within the street is me, candace, our boards, and my dignity on the side of the speed hump...This was the night we also started our gang, The Holy Rollerz.

Stories to tell, sleep to get, and dreamz to dream.
Until next time
Cassie aka the Cat's Pajamas